I have mentioned this before on Twitter but I feel that is has gotten lost in all of the hate, innuendo, and vitriol that is thrown my way. The reason I am so devout in my testimony to Christ is because I am God’s chosen messenger. He came to me when I was a child and told me it was to be this way and from that day forward I have devoted my life to Christ. Every breath and every move is for Him alone.
I was seven years old and he appeared to me in a way that almost felt like a fugue state. I was awake but yet not awake. I was present in the moment but yet not. I felt so warm and wrapped in an intense love. He appeared to me with outstretched arms and told me that he had chosen me to be his Messenger and that it was my sole duty to spread His word throughout my life.
This was shortly after my father had touched me with passionate hands for the first time and I had truly began to understand God’s love. I had never felt so secure as I did in that moment. Even as I type these words I have tears in my eyes. Often I am accused of being hateful of a bigot but the truth is that I just speak my truth and the truth of God as it was written.
Being misunderstood has always been a way of life. As a young girl in school I didn’t have many friends because they were jealous of my self confidence and that I came from a wealthy family. As I got older and more secure in my body and femininity it was very hard to maintain friends due to the intense jealousy. I had to rely on God. He’s never failed me and has always been by my side.
The bullying, the harsh words… the pure hate…none of it will ever break the bond that I have with Christ. From the first touch of my Father until that fateful night that God himself spoke to me I have prided my self on being a pure warrior in His name.
I speak of this tonight hoping to inspire. I hope to encourage. I hope my words somehow find a young girl and encourage her to walk upon God’s path.
I give ultimate blessings to him and I cherish my friends new and old. May you be blessed and always grateful.