Good evening friends! I hope you have all been well! I have been trying to stay home and not venture out much due to the events here in Baton Rouge. I do not trust the loose blacks on the street to not harm me or my family if we were to leave. The situation is indeed dire.
Tonight I’d like to share my thoughts on jealousy. It is indeed a green-eyed monster. I understand that I inspire so many people to be envious of what I have. They are jealous of my lifestyle. They are jealous of my “fame” — and I use that term loosely. I am under no misconception that this will be a long lasting adventure. But for some, those who have such little self confidence of their own, it’s become a hobby to live vicariously through me.
It must be tough seeing the modern fashion industry validate my beliefs. Everyone from Cosmopolitan to Us Weekly and Teen Vogue have shown me support. I understand for some who are struggling that it must incite anger to see me get the type of publicity that some have sought for years. But I did NOT ask for this. It’s overwhelming and has been hard on myself and my family. God had a plan for me and I must accept that this is part of MY journey. And mine alone.
I can’t help but ponder why certain members of the online community feel the need to spew hatred at me over and over as though I am the center of their universe. I guess being the outspoken and elegant woman that I am, people would be naturally drawn to my presence. I understand that as well.
However, to these people I implore you to open your heart to Christ. Find love from within and forge your OWN path. There is but room for one on my journey and it is mine alone. If you find yourself angry or absorbed in my life maybe it is time to step back and examine your self worth in the mirror. Perhaps the jealousy is eating you from the inside. That is not healthy, friends.
This is not meant for my most true friends and fans, whom I cherish.
This is merely for the ogres and black trolls who spit vitriol and harmful words to me. I become stronger every day as their obscenities grow more vulgar and the personal attacks grow more hateful. I will overcome. I will survive. I feel as though Jesus and Mother Teresa are above and anointing me with blessed energy.
I feel serene. I feel at peace.
I wish you all a blessed evening and days to come. I adore you.