Hello friends, it is me Jennifer. Oh how I have missed you and our sacred circle of communication and fellowship. Life is like a book and each day is a new page. Today I am returned and resurrected in His name.
First of all I must share the news that my beloved grandmother lost her battle at the end of March. Cancer is not an attractive disease and she managed the best that she could. In the end everyone agreed that I was very composed and brave and that the funeral service was adequate given the circumstances. Her small frame could no longer support designer clothes so I made the executive decision to have her buried in a tailored sea green bathrobe and towel set. We chose to only have a one hour viewing at the funeral home and the casket was obviously closed for the funeral. I refused to participate in the gathering otherwise.
I planned the event as though it was a dinner party for close friends. Everything had to be arranged perfectly. We chose an inexpensive casket because my husband would not pay much money for a box to just be buried in the ground and I agreed. We covered it with chiffon linens and a spray of red roses. Nobody could tell. My daughters were excited to wear matching black dresses and I used the opportunity to wear my favorite fur trimmed Dior dinner jacket and slacks.
My husband wore a Tom Ford suit. Even though Mr. Ford is a homosexual my husband says the seams and threading are the best quality he’s seen. So I allow it for his happiness.
She was buried peacefully and I have not returned to the gravesite. I don’t believein visiting the dead. I find it tacky and a false representation of my beliefs. The body is a shell. SHE is in Heaven beside my Saviour and smiling down upon me. There is no more pain. There is no more sickness. She is free. Fly, abuela. Te amo.
I will have more updates soon. This has been a difficult time for me and I keep my inner turmoils private. I scream for the Lord. Not for sympathy.
I love you all and hope that your spring season is magical. He Is Risen!